Comments on: Reverie

By: Amanda (Garibay Soup)

Amanda (Garibay Soup) — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 07:22:04 +0000

Oh boy did I ever feel exactly how you’re feeling right now. I have a baby girl who is also in heaven. She’s a baby girl that I loved so much, yet I never got to say hello to her…. and she never said goodbye. I lost her when she was still inside of me, but man did I love her. She was going to be our second born. Very soon after losing Mya, I conceived my daughter Ella. I had such a hard time with this… especially when I found out she was a girl. I felt like I was replacing Mya, and felt HORRIBLY guilty at times. And when I got close to having her I started panicking w/my son who is alive and well that I wouldn’t love Ella the same way I loved Jayden.

It was this huge vicious cycle of guilt. But guess what…. I had her, I looked at her, and my heart expanded in this way I never knew possible… I was in love.

Ella is what I call my Rainbow baby. She’s my Rainbow after the storm of losing Mya. Binky can be your rainbow ~ and just know that Maddie will ALWAYS be there surrounding you with her love…I feel Mya all of the time, and it’s been 3 years, 2 months, 6 days since Mya got her wings.

You are a strong and wonderful daddy!
Amanda (Garibay Soup)´s last blog ..Tonight My Heart is Heavy

By: Kathy

Kathy — Mon, 28 Sep 2009 06:17:44 +0000

When Binky comes, she will open a brand new wellspring of love in your heart. It’s the one right next to Madeleine’s. You can tell Binky as she grows she has a wonderful guardian angel big sister watching out for her.

By: Kim

Kim — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 04:48:37 +0000

Your sweet wife and I have been talking about this very subject. My daughter died and one month later I became pregnant with our second child. Emma was always just a part of our family. We have her pictures on the wall, we talk about her, we watch videos of her…our babies first real outings are to the cemetery to visit her.
As they grow, they ask questions and I answer as honestly as I can, and as their age allows. My kids have never asked who Emma is, they just know she is their sister.
I know that when the time comes, you and Heather will know what to say to Binky.
Kim´s last blog ..Diaper Business

By: Kirsten

Kirsten — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 22:05:23 +0000

In the Waldorf School my daughter has attended since she was 4, the teachers tell a story on the child’s birthday of living in heaven with her angel and then coming to earth. When one of my daughter’s teachers suddenly died, the teachers told the children that the teacher went back to be with her angel. I know that to an adult that sounds a bit hokey, but I find that if I can talk to my young children about something and give them a verbal picture, they understand things much more deeply than when I try to give them facts. I know that you will have enough time to learn to love this child and tell this child what he or she needs to hear to understand. And just as Maddie came into your life for a reason, so this little one is coming to love you. And you will learn to let it and be an amazing dad to another person.

By: Michelle

Michelle — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 06:17:57 +0000

My mind cannot comprehend the magnitude of the loss of a child, it is my worst possible fear and I really and truly physically ache especially for you and Heather as well as Maddie’s friends and family. I can barely get through a post from you or Heather without tears and when I read the news that you were expecting again I had tears. Tears of joy, not just for you and Heather but for the baby who I know is going to be so loved and cherished. While your fears are completely understandable I have no doubts that you will love this child completely, and they will be blessed just as Madeline was with 2 outstanding parents that so many of us aspire to be.

By: amy

amy — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 02:44:45 +0000

I remember thinking the same thing. That I did not want another baby, I wanted to have my firstborn again. (Who is alive and well.) I could not comprehend loving another as I loved him. My girls were born (twins) and I could not love them more. All of them are so special in their own way. You will love Binky and no doubt treasure her all the more after all you went through with your beautiful Maddie.

By: maya

maya — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 16:02:25 +0000

Life isnt fair.

Maddie Should be there- right there with you.

Binky will bring some sunshine into your lives. Something you desperatly need. You will love him/her so much, as you do love your children equally. When the time will come, you will sit down with Binky and tell them just what an amazing beautiful big sister they have. The sister who WILL ALWAYS watch over them.
maya´s last blog ..My Father

By: Katie

Katie — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 15:36:37 +0000

Mike,

I have been following Heather’s blog for a while now and feel so very touched by you both and Maddie. For what it’s worth – you have made me perceive my life in a completely different light. Thank you both for your honesty and openness. I’m sure you understand that it is so difficult for an “outsider” to find any appropriate words to express what they feel, or how they feel for you. But what you both write echoes throughout. I hope you can find peace, if that is at all possible. I am convinced you will love Binky just as much as you love Maddie and I’m sure that deep down you know this already. Perhaps there are other feelings that simply cloud over that realisation but it will come and it will be overwhelming. Sending you both a big ol’ virtual hug from far away, stay strong guys.

By: Krissa

Krissa — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 08:09:26 +0000

Binky couldn’t ask for a better father or mother. … The photo is so beautiful. Sending (((hugs))) your way.

By: Ms. Moon

Ms. Moon — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 00:24:59 +0000

Darling- there is a part of your heart which has not yet been opened. The child to come will open it. That’s all I can say about that except- try not to worry too much.
Ms. Moon´s last blog ..Chickens, Iguanas and Lots and Lots of Laundry